Dear Lachlan,

I love you. I always have. I love your smile, your eyes, your beard, your eye lashes, your eye brows, your teeth, your belly, your smelly feet, your everything. I have come to accept every flaw you have that I know. Even your small amount of attention span. I'm totally crazy about you. You've become a big part of my world since the first time we talked.

These past few days, it feels like you're slipping away from my grasp. I understand that you're trying to have fun in Bali and forget all the problems and stress back home, but please don't neglect me. You can have fun all you want but can't you at least spend even juts 5 minutes of your time to call me? Is that too much to ask? 

At first, I thought it's probably juts me PMSing. I even cried last Sunday because you keep on ignoring me. When you said no overnight calls while you're in Bali, I didn't expect it to be no  calls at all. You barely message me, too. I'm trying to understand but I couldn't. If you're really into us, why can't you spare a little time to at least communicate with me? When you were in Bali last year, you would even go sleep in the living room just so we can have an overnight call but now seems to be different. Have you fallen out of love? Have you found somebody actually worth of your precious time? Did I do something wrong? Am I too ugly or too fat now?

Earlier, I asked you to call me tonight and you agreed. Tonight came and I'm still waiting for your call. You sent me a 3 second video and said that that's it. I asked  what about the call. You told me that you're not trying to neglect me but there are people around. By people, you meant your family and friend. Remember when you called me yesterday in Viber because I asked you to? I was at the student lounge where a lot of strangers are around. I didn't mind them and still answered your call because I've been wanting to see your face and hear your voice. Now you're telling me I have to understand that you cannot call me because your family and friend are around? Is it me or you're just really not into me anymore?

Please tell me soon so I don't have to waste my time waiting for your texts and calls. Tell me soon so we can end this, whatever we have here, as soon as we can.