Saturday, October 24, 2015

To my first love and first heart break,

So you’re mad at me because I wouldn’t fap with you, although I still want to see you do it? It’s been almost 24 hours already and you’re still mad? You really think you have the right to be mad just because I refuse to touch myself in front of you while I still want to see you touch yourself? I mean, yeah sure, I know it’s kinda unfair that I want to see you do it even if I won’t return the favour but is it really that reasonable for to still be mad at me? Shouldn’t I be the one pissed off because of your shallow reason not to skype with me? Oh wait, you said you’re happy by just being quiet? Are you trying to say that your life is not happy with me in it? Are you trying to break up with me? Wow. I didn’t know you’re this shallow.

You know what? If you’re gonna end things between us, make sure to do it via skype call because I don’t want to be dumped over a text message. Have the balls to do it at least in front of my virtual face.

Maybe my life would be happier, too, if you’ll get out of the fucking picture. I’m gonna be able to focus on my studies and be successful because unlike you, I actually have dreams and goals in life. Maybe once I’m already successful I’m gonna be able to meet someone who would not get upset just because I don’t want to touch myself in front of him while he does the same thing to himself. You’re a disgusting piece of shit.

Maybe we’re really not meant for each other, just like that movie we’ve watched. After 3 years, maybe it’s time to stop pretending that we still care for each other. Well, I still do care about you but I don’t think you still have the same feelings for me because if you still do, you wouldn’t dare to hurt and break my heart.


I’m probably miserable right now but eventually, I will be okay with everything. I will be okay without you in my life.